A while ago, I dated a guy who I’ll call Jamie. He was lanky with messy blond hair and eyes that were piercing pools of blue. There’s no way you could miss his bright eyes in a crowd, if you gazed at him long enough, you could feel him reading every thought running through your mind.
On our first date, we
went to see Rock of Ages. I
love Broadway shows, they always put me in a good mood, but this time, I was
more anxious than excited. I had those first date jitters, uncertain how to
behave in front of a stranger. It didn’t help that my date kept glancing over
at me, I didn’t know whether to return his looks or pay attention to the show.
At intermission, Jamie
grabbed my hand and led me through a winding flight of stairs to the top floor
overlooking the stage. This was the first of many explorations, he had a thing
for spontaneous mini adventures, a quality I didn’t realize I would like so
much. The theatre was musty, ancient, and beautiful. Blood-red walls and tall
mirrors filled the halls, gold painted moldings snaked behind us, Jamie turned
to face me and flashed a megawatt smile, the stair railing was the only thing
keeping me from swooning to the floor.
When the show ended, we
followed the hoard of people dispersing into the spring night and made our way to
the subway. As chivalrous as could be, he sat beside me on the hour long
commute to make sure I got home safely even though he lived just a few minutes
from the theatre. As I leaned against the wall waiting for the subway at Bloor,
he locked eyes with me, grinned and without missing a beat, leaned in for a
kiss. Our lips met and a shot of electricity ran down my spine, leaving me clamoring for more.
On our date number two,
we met up at Kensington
Market on a sunny Saturday morning to pick up ingredients for lunch. We filled
a grocery tote with red and orange peppers and a pound of shiny tomatoes. Jamie
then brought me to a fromagerie. As he scoured for a Danish cheese for me to
sample, I ogled the cheese rounds stacked so high I could barely see the lady
working behind the counter not to mention the charcuterie that hung like
Christmas lights around the store. Sadly, he couldn’t find the cheese he
wanted, so we stepped out with another cheese instead.
Just as we were about to
leave, I declared basil my favourite herb and how sublime it would taste in the
pasta dish we were going to make, he spun around, disappeared into another
store and seconds later, came out with a bouquet
of the leafy herb so intoxicating I nearly fainted. With a spring in his step,
he lugged the brimming grocery bag in one hand and took my free hand with the
other.
When we arrived at his
apartment, we unloaded our ingredients and got to work. Jamie took out the
recipe and assigned me on pasta duty. As I familiarized myself around the
cramped kitchen, a fluttery feeling flooded inside me. His strong, muscular
arms that moved across the chopping board, the clap clap clap of the knife against the board, spilling vermillion
tomato juices everywhere, that mischievous smile as if he had something up his
sleeve killed me.
I moved on to prepare a
salad of mixed greens, cucumbers and cherry tomatoes. Jamie manned the stove
and teased out the most luscious, the sexiest tomato sauce ever to cross your mouth.
There was a generous glug of cream to thicken the tomatoes plus a healthy
splash of vodka. Anything with booze is a winner in my book, as is a guy who
can cook. Heaping portions were ladled onto plates along with the salad.
We sat across from each other on the dark wooden table and dug in. After a few
bites, Jamie reached over for my hand, and there it was again, his enormous
smile. Smooth conversation flowed and he continued to caress my hand for the
rest of lunch, my heart swelling like a hot air balloon.
We continued dating for a
few more months before reality hit me squarely in the face and I realized it
wasn’t going to work. I was crushed. Whenever I walked by his neighborhood, my
blood would freeze and all I could picture was my broken heart. But overtime
it’s gotten easier.
For months I've hesitated
writing this piece for many reasons, however, I’ve been on a crazy pasta binge
lately and felt compelled to share this recipe. It’s SO yum. This sauce
can be made on a whim, with just a few ingredients that hopefully you already
have sitting in your fridge. Each ridge of penne soaks up the sweet, creamy
sauce and like all great loves, this sauce will make you swoon.
